May 2012
132 posts
That moment you realize he's not coming.
I could go on a depressing rant about how I hate my life, but I would be lying. I don’t. I love my life. I have a great job, a handful of awesome friends and up until recent a sexy-ass boyfriend. I don’t have my life, my illness does. Take your it get’s better bull shit and shove it up your ass. I don’t give a fuck.
Nicki, this is how Marilyn Monroe felt.
031494:
it would be swell if someone came over and curled up in bed with me and watched tv and had lots of conversations about nothing
i even washed my sheets today and cleaned my room come on
I needed this tonight, I wasnt worth it.
“I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn’t...”
– Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via sunshinemakesmehigh)
“I really hate being crazy. Like I really hate it.”
These meds are doing fucked up shit to my mind
I want to get better but I don’t think I can. I don’t think I have the strength. I don’t think I have the support. I don’t think I have the stamina. I just don’t think I can do it. I will always be broken. I will never be normal.
I realized all of that today, and needed you. We dated for a year. We claimed “best friends.” Maybe I was asking too much,...
“You use you’re heart as a weapon, and it Hurts Like Heaven”
– Coldplay “Hurts like Heaven” (via rupturedbrio)
“But if you turn your back on me now when i need you most, but you chose to let...”
– Too Close for Comfort; McFly (via dancinginthetwilight)
They say everyone dies one day, why not today?
Dear Crush,
kayenzki:
I regret nothing
Except falling in love with you.
I woke up, cried and now am going back to bed.
I don’t know why I cried. But it felt good.
me 5 seconds ago: i'm so happy
me 4 seconds ago: i'm so sad
me 3 seconds ago: i want to die
me 2 seconds ago: i want to live forever
me 1 second ago: i need drugs
“Nobody can save you but yourself — And you’re worth saving. It’s a war not...”
– Charles Bukowski (via mentaljig)
I am healthy.
I can tell. It’s beautiful.
Take a minute and praise God for meds. Xanax maybe the manmade heaven.
Everything I got pissed about, I am.
I am a chronicly masturbating, porn addicted stoner.
Cheers.
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Lessons learned this year.
I didn’t learn much. I can say this. No matter who you are, you are a strong, beautiful person. You need no one else to tell you that, except yourself. If you never believe in who you are, neither will anyone else. Don’t lose yourself in the race to make it.
there's a bluebird in my heart: Why I’m against... →
uncutting:
If you’ve looked at my blog for even just a minute, it’s clear that I’m opposed to circumcising non-consensual infants. Here’s a brief explanation of why I (and thousands of others) are so against it.
Circumcision is sexually damaging in three main ways.
1. The foreskin is the…
Top Ten Memories
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9. Steph...
Ig you have followed me from the beginning...
And by beginning I mean going back to lifeisprettywoman, you know that each year I post a list of lessons I have learned in the past year, and the top ten memories of the year. Additionally, you would know that after ever serious break-up I post the playlist to the break up. I see the irony in a year relationship ending at the same time as this. It’s May, it happens at the end of second...